I almost didn’t write this book.
Not because I didn’t have the words. I had too many of them. Too many late nights with my journal. Also, too many conversations with my therapist that started with “I don’t understand why I keep doing this.” Too many men who left fingerprints on parts of me I didn’t know were still soft.
What I didn’t have was the language for all of it. Until I found clay.
Why Pottery. Why This.
There’s something that happens when you put your hands in mud. It doesn’t care how you’re feeling, nor rush you. It simply responds: to pressure, to heat, to time. And one day I realized: that’s exactly what heartbreak does.
It shapes you whether you want it to or not.
Clay is my debut poetry collection, and it is the most honest thing I have ever made. 107 poems structured around the stages of pottery: dry clay, the wheel, leather-hard, bone dry, bisque firing, glaze. Each one mapping a different moment in the journey of becoming.
There are poems in here about staying soft for people who didn’t deserve it. About the men who tried to reshape me. Some gently, some not. About the version of myself I kept workable long past when I should have let her set, crack lines, and kilns. And about what fills the breaks.
And about the morning I woke up and realized I had been the potter the whole time.
Who This Book Is For
This book is for you if you have ever:
- Caught yourself shrinking to fit someone else’s hands
- Loved someone who left before they could see what you were becoming
- Stayed in something past its expiration because softness felt like loyalty
- Sat across from a therapist and run out of words for what hurts
- Or simply felt… unfinished
You are not unfinished. You are mid-firing.
What’s Inside
Clay moves through thirteen sections, each named for a stage in the pottery process. It begins in the dust, before love takes form and ends with a letter to the finished piece. To you, me., and every woman who survived the fire and came out sealed.
Some poems are short and sharp, landing in a single breath. Some are long and searching. And some will make you laugh because heartbreak is sometimes absurd and we don’t talk about that enough. And some will make you set the book down, look at the ceiling, and say “how did she know.”
That’s the one I wrote it for.
A Note on How Long This Took
I want to be honest with you: this book took everything I had.
It took therapy. and distance. It took writing the same feeling twelve different ways until I found the one that was true. Lastly, it took being willing to name things I had spent years making vague on purpose.
If any part of this resonates. If you’ve been circling your own version of this story and couldn’t find the words. I wrote Clay so you’d have them.
Get Your Copy
Clay is available right now on Amazon in paperback and Kindle.
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Paperback: $13.99 Kindle eBook: $6.99
If you read it and it moves you, the kindest thing you can do is leave a review on Amazon. Even two sentences. It’s how books like this find the people who need them.
Share This If It’s For Someone You Know
If you have a friend who is mid-heartbreak, mid-healing, or mid-figuring-it-out. This is the book you buy them. Send them this post. Tell them a girl put her hands in the mud and came out with something that might help.
Because that’s what this is.
Not a self-help book. Not a collection of Instagram captions. A real, full, finished thing: made from real, full, messy feeling.
Clay is here. It’s yours if you want it.
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